Fear is sin against the spirit.
One of the worst kinds of fear is beginner’s fear.
Beginners’ fear is the fear of starting, the fear of taking the first step down a new path.
Beginner’s fear debilitates the spirit.
Beginner’s fear keeps the hero of the story(you) from leaving their metaphorical or literal hometown to endure the trials and tribulations of the path to be transformed into a greater version of themselves, to eventually return home to visit, stay, or never return, leaving their back turned on what was for good.
The fear of beginning prevents mastery which prevents fulfillment.
Some individuals die without ever taking the first step down a path to mastery they believe will give them fulfillment.
Beginner’s fear prevents the pursuit and acquisition of fulfillment. Beginner’s fear keeps a good life away from the fearful wanderer.
When you begin walking down a new path, you leave part or all of your old life behind to find something new.
The hungry wanderer
A wanderer is hungry for fulfillment.
He stands in front of the soil, with seeds in his hand.
To begin walking a new path is to kneel down, get in the dirt, and put seeds in the soil.
Maybe the seed will grow, maybe it won’t–you won’t know unless you plant the seed.
Those with beginner’s fear do not plant the seed. They stare at the soil without moving.
Some stand before the soil until they wither away and die, holding a seed containing the potential for life, for fulfillment, without ever knowing if the crop could fulfill them.
- The writer who dies with all their stories inside of them.
- The fashion designer who never gets to see her clothes on another’s body
- The inventor who dies without releasing their invention to make the world a better place
Beginners fear is Purgatory and purgatory is hell.
The worst thing in the world is the unanswered call of the path–also known as wasted talent.
The fear of judgment
The fear of judgment prevents the wanderer from planting the seed.
The fear of judgment can come from parents, peers, or from the self, the worst kind of judgment–paralyzing self-judgment.
Unproductive self-judgment begins in the mind. In particular, a dirty, unpure mind that has not been filtered with breathwork.
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Judgment before action is fatal to fulfillment. This is the beginner’s fear.
Embracing a new path
The beginner must not judge themselves or the path until they have walked enough to understand if the path is fulfilling to their spirit.
Your life will not change unless you are walking down the path.
The path is progress and growth.
You want change.
Change is the only constant you can rely on in this world.
If you are not changing, the world around you still is. And you will stay unfulfilled because mankind finds fulfillment through the forward-moving, forward-changing, pursuit of mastery on the path.
You cannot stop change, but you can control how you change by the pursuit or non-pursuit of mastery.
- The pursuit of mastery is change for good
- The pursuit of pleasure is change for bad
Alpha/Omega. Creation and destruction.
You cannot control change, you cannot hang onto what was. Accept this and build a desirable future.
When you leave your old life behind and test out a new path as a beginner, the path may be harder than what you left behind. You may have not wanted to leave your current path but were forced by internal or external forces.
It is better to force change upon yourself so you are somewhat in control of where your river of destiny takes you. Where the flow of life(change) deposits you.
You may want to return home because the path is difficult. But the path is where you grow and become stronger, and the home you left may not be there, nor may it provide fulfillment, so you must continue onward.
Continue on until you overcome the difficulties of the path, rendering them difficult no longer.
When you are a beginner testing the first few steps of a path, focus on walking, not judging.
If you want a different path because this new one is unfulfilling, do so.
If you want a different path because this new one is difficult, carry on.
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